Blue Days

It's been one of those Blue days! I mean the feeling useless, no reason to do anything, blah, stay in your pajama days! You know, the kind where you feel sorry for yourself days. Where you blame yourself for everything that has gone wrong in your life and those around you!

Yep..one of those days. Didn't get dressed.. and slept from 2-6 this afternoon!

I came home last night from a great evening at my daughter's, relaxing and listening to her and my granddaughter playing in the lake water, watching hubby fish in the boat off shore and working on an oil painting of the place. Nice evening for sure. On the way home, some short words with hubby and it hit me.. BOOM! Like the very air sucked right out of me! I leaned my head against the car window, covered my eyes so I couldn't see the gorgeous sunset, and it started the pity party. Came home, put on PJ's and went to bed. Got up still feeling down.
YOu know the rest... previous paragraph!

I don't know.. why I let words hurt so easily sometimes. Why I respond like that, I don't know. Not often, but when I do, I waste a whole day! maybe sometimes we women need to do it! ??
It's not that I hate life, far from it. But I would love to live it more! Lots of lonely days and evening. Friends I have, but they don't live near, so I don't see them. Really have none here where I am now, so we seem to sit at home alot doing nothing.

Living in Indiana,there really is no place to just take off to! when I lived in New Mexico I would take off and drive thru the mts, find roadsI hadn't been on before and check out the scenery! I loved doing that! Taking the camera along to always find something to shoot!

In Indiana it's farmhouses, and cornfields! How many of those can you take? No sense taking the camera where I live! Pretty boring. Most things to do here cost money..and there is no extra, so that's out! In Co. and NM scenery was gorgeous and FREE and around every bend, mt and valley!

Now I have a choice.. I can feel sorry for myself gain tomorrow..or get up, shower, get dressed and at least clean the house. THAT is a job that is needed to be done! We'll see what tomorrow brings! Who knows??